Sunday, April 3, 2011

Amy's Journey has Ended in Heaven

Rest in Peace My Sweet Angel Amy.  Your journey was long ... and it was hard, but the plan you laid out will go on.  About an hour ago, God welcomed a beautiful Angel into his Kingdom.  You will be missed Amy, but you will always be with us.  Luke and Carter will always carry you with them.

I was blessed to have been a part of your life ... I love you Amy.


Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Kisses for Mommy

I loved the look on your face when I gave you this picture last night.  You had never seen it before.  I should have given it to you sooner.  You look so pretty here, and when Carter kissed your picture and said, "My Mommy" you had the greatest smile on your face.  This is how they see you ... so pretty, smiling and you'll always be their Mommy.  Praying for you Amy and praying that somehow God will heal you here on Earth long before you go to Heaven ...  but knowing that no matter what, all the pain will be healed in Heaven and you will be in God's arms full of laughter and be so perfect.

Love,  Tannie

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Almost Home ...

Dear Amy ...

Even though I don't get to see you much anymore, I know that you know that I love you.  You will always be a daughter to me.  I know that you're so weak now and so tired and your battle is soon coming to an end.  You have so many people praying for you and I know you feel it.  I'm asking God to lift you up in his hand and show you how worthy you are, that you always were and always will be.  I'm praying that you as you leave this world, you leave it knowing that every single little thing that you've done as a Mother was in love for your boys, that they will always feel your arms around them and you will always be with them all of their life.  I will encourage them to always talk to you and hear your advice from Heaven, because I know that Heaven is where you will be, and I know with all the love that they have for you, they will hear you when it's quiet and when they need that closeness to you.  You made beautiful smart babies Amy, and they are going to be okay.  We'll make sure of that.  Josh and Jessie will always make sure that Luke and Carter know you and love you.

I believe with all of my heart that God is with you in this journey, and he loves you so much.  When you are too tired to go on, it's okay to close your eyes and go with him.  He won't let you down.

You're almost home Amy, and you're going to be healed ... in Heaven.

I love you!

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Amy - You're Beautiful!

Dear Amy,
I was so proud of you for being brave enough to come alone to Joey and Mariah's wedding Saturday.   I know it was hard for you ... but you still are our family, and it was good to be there with us.
It's been a while since I've updated here,  and I know this blog never got off of the ground.  You had great intentions, but I also know that a few months ago you were reeling with emotions.  You still are, and your life now revolves around trying to be a Mother, a Daughter, a Sister, a Friend and Chemo.
You look good.  Beautiful, Peaceful, and  no longer haunted by your future.  As hard as it is ... and it is, you are doing well today.  I'm so happy for you that you're fairly tolerating the Chemo, and I hate it for you that you have so much more of it left to go and the uncertainty of your every days. 
If only we could go back and change the past .... if only we could see and know what our tomorrows bring, so much would have changed, and maybe you wouldn't be going through this.  I guess I'm still not past the what if's.  I'm not in your place, but I will always be here for you.
Mainly,  even through this hard time ... you've found something so far bigger than anything you've ever known.  You've found love.  True deep love.  Not that you never had it before ... but right now in your life, it is greater and better than ever.  It's the love for your boys.
I love you Amy.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Prayers and Comments

Dear Amy,

I thought it would be nice if I put all the comments together in one place.  I'll try to do this periodically to make it easier for you to read ... plus down the road when we print this blog, they'll also be a much loved part.

Comments and Prayers from today back to the beginning ~    Tanya

Stacey said ... Prayers to you today Amy!

Tink said...  Thinking of you today. Sending BIG HUGS!!

Amy I am praying for your comfort and peace.

Amy I have been thinking about you and your family, and sending prayers during this difficult time. Okie Nana

Mona Smith said...  That song has so much meaning and so much truth to it. I have always felt chills everytime I hear the song "If tomorrow never comes" by Garth Brooks and it is a constant reminder to me to do everything in my power to make everyone close to me know just how much I love them and that when my time on earth is through, the love I gave each of them in the past, will be enough to last, until they meet me on the other side. Amy, I pray for you each day and pray for peace in your heart and for Gods healing hand to be on you.

Tink said... I am so glad you are home again with your children. I feel I know you all through Tanya, so many pictures and posts on her site over the years..  I have candles lit and Healing energy's being sent to you..
Brightest Blessings..

Diana Lopez said... wow, cool homework..great questions...god bless you Amy

Good to be a Queen said... Amy, wishing you the best for the week ahead.....
Take Care

Hi Amy,
I realize that posting a letter here had to be a very difficult step for you. It sort of makes the whole thing real once it's been typed into words. I hope that you will come to find posting your letters to be a source of comfort. This blog a sort of oasis from the storm.  You have been and will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Sabrina said... Praying for you Amy. I know that the road ahead of you is long and uncertain, but we all care. We are thinking of you and your family, and praying for your recovery.

Amy-  I'm so glad you are home with your family and children. I will continue to pray for you all. Stay strong and look to the heavenly father, he will bring you through this.

Amy~~  Prayers continue for you and your beautiful family. Hold fast to your faith. Whatever happens God will not leave you--He will give you strength and peace to carry you through.

There's Hope in Each New Day
When life is filled with challenges
Fight back with heart and soul,
Face each one with confidence
To win your utmost goals.

Anyone can be a winner
When God is on their side,
Just trust His loving providence
For it can turn the tide.

And if it is a MIRACLE
You need to see you through,
You may just find that MIRACLE
Will wing its way to you.

(Catherine Janssen Irwin)
With love and hope from High Point, North Carolina

krueth said... continuing to pray for you Amy....May God Bless you and hold you in His Arms, till you are strong enough to stand on your own again...

Amy...I discovered your blog and I am praying for you. I pray for your strength and for your health and for your beautiful children. I pray that your heart heals and you can find peace in life. Hang in there. I am a complete stranger but your story has touched me greatly.

Gina said... Amy, 
Sending prayers your way right now...
My husband just started back at work after 6 months of chemotherapy, so we do know what you are going through...
Amy - you've got to think, and really know, that you are going to be ok.
Your family needs you, your children need you...
The world needs you...
I know how weak you feel right now - but the Lord will make you strong. He knows how much you are needed, and how much you are loved. Be well. Get healthy - and know you are in our prayers...

Good to be a Queen said... Amy, Georgia is praying for you and your wonderful family.....My heart and prayers are with you.
Angie Queen

Elissa said... Amy~ Jared & I are praying for you, Josh, Luke, and Carter. Just keep leaning on God for strength and understanding. We love you.

Praying and sending positive thoughts and wishes to you and your family. Mona

Prayers and best wishes from North Carolina. A good frind is a few steps ahead of you. You are both stong, brave people. The best to you and your family and we will keep praying for you.

Dear Amy, 
I was glad to read that you are now home with your family after surgery. I do not know you or your family and I cant quite recall how I came across your blog but I want you to know how far your story has reached, my son and I in washington state are praying for you as well. Stay srong and get your much needed rest.
May the grace and the peace of the lord continue to be with you.
Nicole and Austin

tiffany said...  I'll be here, 2:00 sharp!

The Cup Is Half-Full said...  Amy,  Praying for you without a doubt! You can do this. Thinking of you often.

I know you have a long journey ahead of you, but you are young and strong. I'll be praying for you and your family. I pray that God will give you the peace and comfort you need during your surgery.

I'm so glad she is a child of the King!
My prayers are with you thru all of this. God Bless!

Annette Young said...
Sending you good thoughts and lots of prayers. I always look at the glass half full and I just know everything will be ok! Take Care, Annette

krueth said...
Praying for you Amy...I came on at 3:00 but immediatly prayed for you ....Wendy

I am on the west coast so I got here close to 2:00 PM our time, sorry I was late.
Praying for you, keeping you in my thoughts and so happy you got baptized!!
Best wishes for a speedy recovery, I will continue to pray for you Amy.

The Morgan Mommy said...
Amy,  I am sending lots of prayers your way .... today and always! Keep up your incredible fight.

Amy, I'm Elissa's mother, and I just talked with her, and she told me I could reach your blog thru a link on Tanya's site. I didn't read it in time to pray for you at 2 p.m., but I will be praying for you. I remember you from Jared & Elissa's wedding. I'm so sorry you are so sick. I am so glad you have come to know the Lord.

Diana Lopez said...
I'll be praying for you Amy......

Truly hope you are feeling God's comfort and love. Wishing you the best with your reoovery from surgery. You will remain in my prayers.

Egghead said...
Amy I am sending you my love and prayers. We are all here with you in spirit and love. Blessings and strength to you from God.

Praying for God's hands to be on the surgeons and to give them the skills and knowledge to make the best decisions for you. Hoping you feel all the love and prayers being sent your way, God Bless You and your family, Mona

Diana Lopez said...
Hi Amy, she's right, write like you will live forever, because you will live forever, weather it is here on earth or at home with Jesus our Saviour...Always have faith, trust god that what ever happens it happens for a reason. I am sure that God has something big planned for you, Pray always to God to guide you and give you strength for this journey that he has prepared for you. You will always be in my prayers. With much love Diana.

Egghead said...
This is beautiful Tanya. Amy we are praying for strength to get through the days ahead and peace for your heart.

Sabrina said...
Praying for you Amy. I cannot even being to imagine what you are feeling & going through as you begin to write letters to your precious boys. I hope that you are able to tell them everything you want them to know, and more. Let your heart be your guide. Tanya, this is a beautiful letter. I know that you will do your very best to help Amy and your family through this difficult illness and journey. You are all in my prayers and thoughts - daily.

Amy, we're thinking about you as you navigate this difficult journey. Don't feel isolated -- please accept and ask for help anytime it's offered or needed. Keep your chin up and cherish each and every moment with your children. We've never met, but I've read your story on Tanya's page. My best wishes to you and your family. --Laura

Amy, May you feel God's arms around you as you begin your journey. Please know that you are being lifted up in prayer and that we are all pulling for you. I lost my mother at age 13 and there are so many sweet memories from my childhood that wonder in and out of my thoughts just out of the blue and alot of times, those exact thoughts were exactly what I needed to remember during certain obstacles I was going through at the time. What I would have given to have something like this for my mother to have been able to put it all down for me to keep not only in my heart, but where I could go back and hear her voice reading her feelings as I looked upon it. A place where I could go for comfort at times I needed her reassurance in my life. Your boys will always feel your love guiding them through their life. Keep the Faith and keep believing. Mona

Diana Lopez said...
I'll be checking her post on friday. Thank you

Sabrina said...
Checking in, Praying for Amy, and all of her loving family.

Okie Nana said...
Prayers are being sent your way. Okie Nana

tea4too0 said...
Amy, hang in there, there is hope. If you like, go to Morningstar is going thru lung cancer treatments and talks about it. Very uplifting but alot of truth thrown in.

Praying for you Amy and the rest of the family as well...Wendy

B said...
Praying for you from Florida. My prayer is that you have peace from God throughout this process. Your Faith is going to be tested, but just reach out to God, and He will take your hand and lift you up, love you and comfort you. Remember "If God takes you to it, He will see you through it!"

Jill said...
My prayers are with you Amy! I am 26 with two boys that look about the same age as yours--3 and almost one--and I can only imagine how you must feel knowing that you'll be making this journey so far before them! It breaks my heart...but you'll be there with Jesus watching over them, keeping them safe, and you can be sure they will know you when it is their turn to make the same journey! God bless you! I'll be checking in often!

The Cup Is Half-Full said...
Hi Amy,  I'm joining you in believing for a miracle! Our God is a great God and He is able. I hope this journey takes you about 60 more years!

Im praying for a miracle! God is so big and if its in his will he WILL do it! Whatever the plan is for your life Im praying to give you strength and courage as you face this illness! May everyones prayers give you the the help to get through this! With God all things are possible!!!!

Egghead said...
Amy my heart and prayers are with you every day. I hope you know how many people care about you and your family. We are all praying for a miracle. God bless you.

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Love from Arizona


We love you and Luke and Carter very much. You are an inspiration to your family and everyone who knows you. You are very strong, and I know that came from God. So, Honey trust in him to be with you through all of this. I think of you every day.

Love you very much,

Cousin Sis
Debbie Barnes

Your first Day of Chemo

Dear Amy,

I just want you to know that I'm thinking of you today ... and praying that your first Chemo treatment goes smooth today.  I know that 5 hours of being there in that chair is a long time, but just think ... you have a few great Nurses there that care a lot about you and you'll be in great company!

There's no place like Home ... and I'm so glad that you chose to do your Chemo at home with those that love you!  I know all of the nurses there and I know that you will be loved and pampered while you're there.  Plus, I think my sister Kim is working today and maybe she'll be your nurse!  Either way ... I know you'll get a big hug!