You know .... we all have a story in us, just waiting to be told, and your story will be what Luke and Carter will carry with them ... all of their lives. I believe that what we leave behind is what counts in life ... not material things, but what we have in our heart and what we leave to those we love. Words are so powerful and can be so healing. Your words will be the greatest gift you will ever give to them.
It's funny ... because as I sit here and write this to you, I think about the day I met you. The day Josh brought you home. You were a teenager and were so shy. But you quickly grew into our family and our hearts. It doesn't seem like that day was over eight years ago. I can honestly say that you never in your life said a cross word to me ... you might of thought it, but you never said it. Even though we, me and you, have had good and bad things happen ... we never turned our back on each other ... and for that I am so thankful.
I know that it will be hard for you to start writing here and that is why I'm opening the door for you. It will probably be the hardest thing you've ever done. But I know you can do it. Pouring out your soul and emotions is hard for anyone ... especially when we don't know what the future holds. One day soon turns into another and soon the days are forgotten. When we write our story ... we're leaving a piece of ourselves, one that will carry on forever. So when you write yours, write it like you will live forever ... because to them .... YOU will.
I don't know if I ever told you this, but I started writing letters to Josh before he was ever born. Those letters are twenty-eight years old now, and to me they are priceless. I can just imagine how he will feel when he reads them some day.
Can you just imagine when Carter and Luke are grown up and sitting here reading these letters from their Mother, and from those that loved her? Can you just imagine how full their hearts will be and how they will know beyond a shadow of a doubt that they were loved higher than any mountain and deeper than any sea.
When you think about it ... none of us know what is in our future. That's why it's so important to draw close to God, even when we don't understand things that happen in our life. I know you're on the right path and I know, no matter what happens to any of us ... we'll all meet up in Heaven some day.
I also know that you know .... that you are a daughter of my heart. I love you and promise to always be here to help you. ... and if God would choose to take you tomorrow, I will help take care of your babies and instill in them the one fact that I know ... that you will always love them ... even when you're in Heaven.